Our precious cat, Penny, has been gone now for 6 days! I am much more emotional than I ever anticipated being. I guess the better way to say that is I just wasn't anticipating us losing her so soon. She is only a year and half.
I let her out at about 4:00am last Saturday morning to go the bathroom. She likes to roam the backyard and neighborhood at night but is usually at the back door waiting to be let in at about 6:15 when we are eating breakfast. Saturday, we had to leave for Vegas at 7:30 and she wasn't there. I had a strange feeling, but I am also kind of a worry wart so didn't think anything more. I set her food out on the porch for when she came back. We came home that night, expecting her to be waiting for us, but she wasn't.
The first few days were the longest days for me. Any sound, any movement or shadow, I was sure would be her. I still find myself looking and hoping to see her at the back door.
We have put up fliers, made phone calls, sent emails, and Corky has gone to the animal shelter twice. We have accepted that she is probably gone for good but are so sad about it. Our neighborhood borders some acres of empty land and so my guess is that she roamed too far and may have been snatched by a coyote or something. I always knew it was a possibility but probably got too comfortable after living here for 19 months and NEVER seeing a coyote. Corky says there is a chance she just wandered too far away and couldn't find her way back and is now a stray. Or she might have been picked up by some crazy cat lady.
Luckily it has been far more traumatic and emotional for me than for my girls. They definitely miss her and mention it often, but I haven't seen any breakdowns. Not like the ones I have. The only time I have seen them cry about it is because I started crying first. As long as I can keep my brave face on in front of them, they do well. It's kind of silly really, it is a cat. Pets come and go and that is part of life, but I haven't felt so attached to an animal since my dog of 14 years passed away while I was in high school.
Want to know what I am regretting? Other than letting her out and trimming her claws the day before, is that I didn't write more about how funny of a cat she was. I took so many pictures of her but never posted them because I didn't want to seem obsessed...but I was. She was awesome!!
I have got to end this post! It makes my heart hurt.
Don't think I am weird if in the next few days I post pictures of Penny and my girls that I should have written weeks ago!
9 comments:
Sorry, Morgan! That is really sad...pets are family, too!
sorry to hear she hasnt come back
I was really attached to my cat Esmerelda growing up, and one day (in SG) she disappeared. It was really hard. I'm so sorry Morgan.
Oh Morgan, my heart hurts for you! I'm so sorry. I felt the same way when our cat, Tigger disappeared when we were living in Idaho. We hadn't had him very long either and it just broke my heart. We put up flyers, checked the shelter, asked neighbors, put a missing ad in the paper, I even checked with animal control weekly. He had one of those microchips in his neck, so if anyone found him they could scan him and know to contact us. But that never happened. :(
But earlier this year, I heard of a family who's cat had been missing for months and then one day, the cat was back! So, maybe Penny will turn up someday. I hope she does! *hugs*
That is sad. I'm sorry.
I would feel the same exact way if we lost our dog. They become part of the family, and you just learn to love them.
Please post some pics! I would love to hear some good stories of your kitty!!
That is sad, but I have to say as I read your previous post about you watching the video of Gracey being born I was sobbing. I don't know how you did it, how any army wife does it. I am so happy that you won't have to worry about that again! Hopefully I won't ever have to deal with it (if I can make it another 18 months...doubtful!).
Morgan, I am so sorry. From one cat lover to another, I know that this must be a really hard time for you. Post as many Penny-related things as you want- she's a part of your family and I know your heart must be hurting right now.
I'm so sorry.
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